my melancholy

MIDNIGHT SKY

2010-08-07T22:09:00.000-07:00

Really important meetings are planned by the souls, long before the bodies see each other.

I love you...

I love you more...

I want to be with you my sky.

Heaven knows how much i miss you

You're lips is like ambrosia, it gives me life and make my body immortal.

Every moment that we had spent on that night filled me with nostalgic thoughts.

Make me yours forever.

All i want is to be with your light.

I wanna be with you

2010-07-17T10:36:00.000-07:00

There's a longing in my heart. It feels like I want to be love again by someone. We both know that it's not right. I do not know if I would sacrifice the one who completed my heart or I will sacrifice you. This past few weeks is not easy for me.I always feel that I'm doing something wrong. I'm happy when we're talking to each other. I like the way you annoy me, the way you insult me with your rampant thoughts.
I do not know if I will believe your feeling towards me. I know for a fact I like you and I want to spend just a night to be with you. Hai..... I love her and I want you. I want to have both of you in my life. It sounds so easy yet it's not going to happen I know that you wont let me love her. I never imagined that u will like me. I do not have the qualities that you really want well, except that I am teacher. For god sake i don't know if that is counted ahahaha my bad.
I want to experience what it would feel like if I am with you. I want to know how you would touch me, how you would kiss me. How are you going to love me. I want to know if I'm going to be treated like a princess. Those are the things that I really want to feel. I want to feel that I'm the only one. I want to be special in a nice way. It may sound so selfish in my part but I really want this. I just want to love and be loved in return.

number two

2010-07-15T22:44:00.000-07:00

I want to be with you but you wont let me, I try to let go even if I wanted to stay.
Tsk tsk you are so unfair, you choose to be miserable than to be happy. I do want to be with you.

i miss the light

2010-07-14T11:14:00.000-07:00

I saw the lightning, I saw the star and I saw the night sky. Suddenly i thought about you and i just said to myself that I miss you.I miss the way you annoy me, the way you insult me. I miss everything about you

lihim

2010-07-04T20:50:00.000-07:00

Sabay na humimlay ang buwan at ang langit bago sumikat ang haring araw.

Buong gabi sila ay nagniig sa isang kahon. Nag usap ng mga bagay na walang pumapansin.

Masaya sila sa bawat gabi na sila ay magkausap.

Walang malinaw na patutunguhan ang mga damdamin.

Ngunit sa isang sulok sa puso ng nauna ay may kirot.

Kirot na walang kinalaman sa kanilang dalawa.

Mas ninais niyang lumuha mag isa.

Sapagkat walang nakakaintindi kung paano masaktan at kalimutan ng taong tunay nyang minamahal.

:,(

2010-03-23T06:30:00.000-07:00

i'm mad at you....I want to say sorry to all the things that i've done...ahmm but on a second thought you dont deserve my sorry...you are bitter....i hate it....

the time traveller's wife

2010-03-23T06:26:00.000-07:00

I want to turn back the hands of time when you and i are sleeping in this bed, when i hug you like there's no tomorrow, when i kiss your lips when you wake up, i miss every morning when i used to see you sleeping and holding my hands... I miss everything, I want to feel that way again....and yes, i do miss you....

wishful thinking

2010-03-13T01:42:00.000-08:00

It's true that setting someone free is the hardest thing to do. It's not the tears you cried that makes it so hard but the small piece of hope left inside your heart that someday you'll still end up together..

Just a Song Part3

2010-02-19T23:32:00.001-08:00

Anything for you
Though you're not here
Since you said we're through
It seems like years
Time keeps draggin on and on And forever's been and gone
Still I can't figure what went wrong

I'd still do anything for you
I'll play your game
You hurt me through and through
But you can have your way

I can pretend each time I see you
That I don't care and I don't need you
And though you'll never see me cryin'
You know inside I feel like dying
And I'd do anything for you
In spite of it all
I've learned so much from you
You made me strong
But don't you ever think that I don't love you
That for one minute I forgot you
But sometimes things don't work out right
And you just have to say goodbye

I hope you find somone to please you
Somone who'll care and never leave you
But if that someone ever hurts you
You just might need a friend to turn to

And I'd do anything for you
I'll give you up
If that's what I should do
To make you happy

I can pretend each time I see you
That I don't care and I don't need you
And though inside I feel like dying
You know you'll never see me crying

Don't you ever think that I don't love you
That for one minute I forgot you
But sometimes things don't work out right
And you just have to say goodbye

Just a Song Part 2

2010-02-19T23:28:00.000-08:00

I LOVE YOU GOODBYE

Wish i could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish i could say to you
That i'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something i can't do
Oh i could say that i'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know i'd only hurt you
I know i'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

I hope someday you can find some way to understand i'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart i know this is the kindest thing to do
You'll find someone who'll be the one that i could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me
Oh i could say that i'll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know i'd only hurt you
I know i'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as i love you

Oh i don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But i'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

Baby, its never ganna work out
I love you, goodbye

just a song

2010-02-11T05:10:00.000-08:00

Thinking of You

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go?
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

Kisses Under the Moon

2010-02-03T22:44:00.000-08:00

I really enjoy those kisses under the moon.. Our kisses full of love and passion. You got me wrapped around you. Being with you for that night is so memorable.... A memory that will linger for a long time. The moon is the witness on how much i love you... It shines above us as we kiss under its light... I'm swept away by you.... I want to be with you always....I am your moon and you are my star... You are mine...

new friends, frappe, fries, float, super heroes and punyeta

2010-02-02T03:06:00.000-08:00

01/30/10

This day is very memorable for me.. I've met my new friends, I've seen my beloved markie. Hai...grabe sobrang kinakabahan ako nung araw na to, i didnt know what to expect from my clan mates. It's my first time to attend a geb, I'ts a good thing na kasama ko si markie, kasi I dont know how to talk to them na hindi sila matatarayan sakin. Some people find me as snob, well actually half true yun I'm the type of person na hindi magsasalita kung hindi kinakausap and also i really look like a snob. Ang taray ko daw kasi tingnan. 2;30 pa lang nag meet na kami ni markie sa trinoma. No one from my clan mates are in there. Sobrang aga namin, well, markie and i is very excited to meet each other again. Tagal din namin hindi nagkita kahit na everyday kami magkausap I still miss my hubby. The first person na nameet ko is balla baby she is one of the founder and markie refer her as mama, she's quiet nice though i can tell that may pagkamaldita din sya. After seeing balla pumunta na kami sa starbucks garden. It 's located at the top of trinoma sobrang init pa nung time na un. Buti na lang we secure some place na pwede naming upuan. As time pass by dumating na sila she and nick, then si ices and chinitz, dumating na din sila ayie and ian but nag eksena pa sila. Gumawa pa ng moment somewhere in time zone, ahahahah. Dumating din sila jhem and ana then si ash and shawty, mga six na dumating sila che and dc yta un. I forgot her name already. Sobrang saya namin, picture taking and ang daming food.After namin sa trinoma nagka ayaan naman sa pdy. So pumunta kaming lahat without balla, ian and ayie. Kailangan na kasi nila umalis nung time na un. Masaya sa archers. Inuman and kwentuhan hanggang mag decide na sila umuwi kasi may natatae na!!! hahaha hilarious talaga ang araw na un.

Love Remains the Same

2010-01-29T03:20:00.000-08:00

Hai...
I hate this feeling...
I still think about you...
I know that i should end this..
But everything that i do only reminds me of you..
I cant pretend that i don't need you
That i don't miss you
But i do...
I want to run to you..I want to see that smile again..
I know its not fair...
Every time that there is a space between my mind I always think of you..
I'm happy now
I should be, because i have someone
I'm sorry for everything
I know that there is still a place for me in your heart..
Forgiveness is what i need from you
Everything will change
But my love remains the same....

nakakatakot na tomboy

2010-01-25T08:43:00.000-08:00

Tama ba naman ung nakita ko kanina?
Isang malaking tomboy ung sumuntok dun sa kawawang girl at dun sa on nung girl!!!
I was shocked!!!
Hindi ko expect na ganun ung mangyayari..
Well, i dont have the right to judge that huge butch because i dont really know her, but the fact that she did that barbaric thing to that poor girl,,sigh....it's not proper.
Ganun ba talaga ung ibang tao?
Just because they are too arrogant they act as if they own that place.
hai...
kawawa talaga ung girl kanina
Nakakatakot makasama ung butch na un.
Kahit mga lalaki nahirapan na pigilan sya,,
Sana hindi ako makakilala na ganun umasal na butch
hindi pwede sakin un.
Lalabanan ko sya...
Naisip ko nga kanina
Paano kung ako ung nasa kalagayan nung girl?
Hirap nun huh
Kasama ko pa naman ung hubby ko kanina...
What kaya mangyayari...
Well, ayoko na alamin pa...

today and forever :)

2010-01-25T08:41:00.000-08:00

I'm happy when i'm with you....
yes i am....
i love you so much...
01/08/10

si markie at si ako

2010-01-23T22:37:00.000-08:00

01/08/10
memorable yan na araw sakin. Hindi ko expected na may taong iiyak sa akin at magsasabi na ayaw na nya ako mawala sa buhay nya. Oo alam ko nung mga panahon na yun mahal ko pa si topak. Pero nung makita ko na iniyakan na nya ako nahulog yung puso ko.Natuwa, may tao pa pla na magmamahal sakin. Na kahit pinilit ni topak sabihin sakin na wala akong kwenta at naniwala ako may nagmahal pa rin sakin. Nagpapasalamat ako kasi naramdaman ko ulit ung pakiramdam na kiligin "kilig factor" grabe nakakamiss yung ganun pakiramdam. Na sa pag gising mo pa lang sa umaga siya na ung maiisip mo. Na lagi ka naghihintay na magising sya kasi halos 3am na kayo nakatulog dahil magka chat kayo. Masarap na maramdamn na everytime na nagkikita kayo ay hindi ka kinakabahan kasi wala kang pera. Na hindi sasama ang loob mo pag nalaman mo na pumunta sya sa mga babae nya. Masarap maramdaman at malaman na yung taong mahal ko ako lang din ang mahal. Na hindi na ako iiyak dahil niloloko nya lang ako. Na hindi na ako masasaktan sa lahat ng masasakit na salita na narinig ko. Mahal ko si markie...alam ko yun...siya lang talaga...

her number

2010-01-23T22:25:00.000-08:00

why do i have to memorize her number.
Of all the things i cant forget is her damned number.
I don't know why,
At every chance that i have i always dial her number...
With all the number two's in it
Sigh...
Its such a shame that up to this moment I'm still wishing that her number will ring.
And i will hear that familiar voice. That voice that once told me sweet words, damned words and comforting words. Now it's all gone...

friendster

2010-01-23T22:20:00.000-08:00

naiinis ako..
bakit?
kasi wala na ung friendster ko...
ano ba meron dun?
eh di lahat ng memories ko..
masaya, malungkot..
sino may kasalanan?
siya!!!!
ayun oh...
nakasmile pa!!!!
kairita...
well...
kasama nya si bruha...
ung panget na masama pa ang ugali!!!
come to think of it..
sila din pala magkakatuluyan
i do not hate her,
it's just that she hates me...

I LOVE YOU

2010-01-23T22:01:00.000-08:00

I LOVE YOU. I promise to you and to myself that you are the only person to whom i will say these words. But now, that promise was lost and broken. I do not love you as i love you last year, last month, last week and this past few minutes...I now love someone else. She complete me like you did ages ago. She is always there to make me happy. I want to overcome this uncertainty. Its good to have someone who will like me as i am. I can say anything without hesitations.I can do anything with her. She own me as i own her.

It would take me a year to completely forget you...

2010-01-21T22:54:00.000-08:00

Its been a week since I've talked to you..

I cant deny it...
I still miss you...
I really do...
Are you happy with her?
I dont know...
I want you to be happy...
I know you are mad at me because of the things that i've done to you..
Well i'm still here...
Waiting for the moment....
To talk and explain to you everything...
I still love you
Yes i do...
No i dont...

best of deception

2008-11-28T04:15:00.000-08:00

my day late friend...
very inspiring day....
i always get what i wanted....
best of deception..
you will be back someday...
lying and cheating all time....
she doesnt love you....
you should hear that from her...
dont you see that everything is over between the two of you...
all of the clever stories is just a way of letting you know how cruel love can be...
sacrificing all that you had...
everything...
between the two of you...
your calling too late...
it ends tonight

lokohan

2008-11-27T05:43:00.000-08:00

ayaw ko na sayo...
miss ko na lahat..
yung maging masaya...
yung ako lang masaya...
ako lang mag isa...
walang inaalala....

nagsasawa rin ako

2008-11-21T04:20:00.000-08:00

sawa na ako...
sayo...
satin....
panu ko ba sasabihin sayo yun huh?
well...
let the flames begin...
love to flirt...

KASINUNGALINGAN

2008-11-10T23:57:00.000-08:00

Alam mo ba na lahat ng sinasabi nya sayo ay hindi totoo? Hindi ka na niya mahal. Awa na lang nararamdaman nya sayo. un na lang. Wala ka ng magagawa pa dun. Kahit na anong gawin mo kailangan mo ng tangapin ang katotohanan. Iniwan ka na nya. Hindi na sya babalik pa sayo. ayaw ka nya masaktan.Hindi nya masabi sayo ang lahat. Marami ka pang hindi alam. Na dapat ay malaman mo na.
Hayaan mo na siya wag ka na magpilit pa..
KARMA IS DIGITAL...

alone forever

2008-11-10T23:48:00.000-08:00

Do you know how it feels like being alone..
With no one to talk to..
I always feel that..
Alone and confuse..
Bitter resentment always flow through my mind..
Mingled with sorrow and pain..
After this winter i will be alone completely..
all by myself..
I need to forget all of my memories..
The happy ones..
Especially the torn ones..
I will be new..
I need new hopes and dreams..
Better change the reality that im facing right now..
Too much is enough..
I need to let go..
To stop this torture..
This agony..
This misery..
I must leave..

i know you will read this

2008-10-23T18:38:00.000-07:00

hi girl.....
karma is here...
knocking in your doorstep......
can you feel it?
i bet you are......
hahaha....
revenge is sweet.........

10/16/08

2008-10-17T02:37:00.000-07:00

hayyyyy panu ko ba sisimulan ang isang napakagandang araw... grabe... mega linis ako ng bahay kasi sabi niya dito ulit sya mag sleep...hmmmm... ang saya saya...hehe with hidden agenda.... whiy do i love you? ahmmmmm... wala pa akong load ng araw na yun... kinakabahan... wala pa si mama.... kahit like ko siya itext eh hndi ko magawa kasi nga.... wala ako pera,,... hehehehe...ayun she text me na.... kita daw kami trinoma....paktay....25 lang pamasahe ko....la pa ako load..... pero ang bait ni god...... dumating si mama with may bongang bonga money.... sinundo ko ang aking pinakamamahal sa mrt...... then we ate tapsilog and porksilog.... hndi siya masarap...hehehe....tapos un.... dun sa room....i love to look in her eyes while she sleeps... ang cute nya....hehehe... when the moon emerge...aun mega inuman kami with my sister... aun nalacing....isang nakakapagod na gabi ang nangyari....hehe...evil smile......and then hirap matulog...kahit magkatabi kami...ewan ko ba.....hehehe...and then the sun shines...sad na ulit ako...kasi she has to go....tapos ang tamad pa mag text sakin....kakainis...pagod and antok daw siya....hehe...pagbigyan....i love you.....

Bitter Rich Fantasy

2008-10-17T01:53:00.000-07:00

I am not enough to feed your heart

I'm just an option

A girl you can have when you need it

Someone who worth nothing

Now i know

I have come to realize that this is my fate

You don't really ,love me

Love from you is just a mundane idea

One of my fantasy

It will never come true

my sacrifice

2008-10-17T01:46:00.001-07:00

This blood is my sacrifice

Slowly flowing through my arms

I wish to face death in the arms of pain

The coldness of the night stole my emotion

Sickening tired of all the bickering

Only death can conquer my misery

Solitude is what i need

famous break up line

2008-10-17T01:29:00.000-07:00

"mahal kita pero mas mahal ko siya"----- eh di magsama kayo!!!!!!!!!!

"babalikan kita promise"----Kahit wag ka na bumalik!!!!!!!!!!!!

"we can still be friends"----heto piso, hanap ka ng friend mo!!!!!!!!!!!

"pareho ko kayong mahal"----wow!!! ano ka? magulang at kami anak mo?!!!!!!!!?

" i want to be happy"----- Eh di clown hanapin mo!!!!!!!!!!!

"Kung talagang tayo, destinyna ang gagawa ng paraan"----- Sino si Destiny? ate mo? !!!!

" you will find someone better than me" ----- Alam ko... Pinagtyagaan lang naman kita eh!!!!!!!!

happiness

2008-09-24T18:54:00.000-07:00

being happy means being with you,
being able to hug and kiss you,
to feel your love,
to feel your touch,
to know what you feel,
that is happiness for me,
when i will be happy?
happiness is you,

masaya ang buhay

2008-09-20T20:54:00.000-07:00

kulang talaga ang oras...
aun time na ulit ako......
actually wala ako nagawa
haha
miss na kita.....
roselle..............

it ends tonight

2008-09-20T20:40:00.000-07:00

living without you is like being buried six feet below the ground.........

i cant eat, i cant think, i cant breathe..............

without you I'm a mess.............

you are the only one that completes my tormented soul.............

misery loves my company........

looks like its here to stay...............

running through my veins...............

creeping in to the wounds that you have made.....................

bleeding profusely..........................

i want to end this agony...............

kill me.............or die with me

sweetest sin

2008-09-16T19:35:00.001-07:00

I want to kiss you. .
I want to hug you forever. .
I know that you're already happy with her. .
But how about me?
When will i be happy?
"i love you"
Is not enough. .
"i miss you"
Is not right. .
You know why?
Because i want you. .
I want you to own me as i own you. .
But we cant be together. .
I know that the time will come for us. .
Someday. .
Somehow. .
Till forever. .

bleeding love

2008-09-16T19:30:00.001-07:00

i want the flowers to bloom again
i can feel the spring air through my face
the sweet scented smell of your breath
i don't want the winter coldness of my body
i need to fight my inner senses
let alone my desire
i must crave for more
i need to let go
happy alone
i don't want to be lonely anymore

BLOG

2008-09-16T19:26:00.000-07:00

syet.....................
gusto ko magsulat ng mahabang mahabang BLOG
pero kulang ang oras.............
isang oras ng pagbabasa sa utak ng ibang tao.........
natutuwa ako
naiisip ko ung mga iniisip ko.............
kasabay ng pagkanta ni neyo.......
kailan kaya mangyayari yun
yung wala kang iniisip na oras
kasi hawak mo oras mo.....
hai............
geh na nga
ako ay may klase pa kay meah....
at may designated expert pa kami
goodluck sa aming lahat

Lahat ng TAMA masakit sa una

2008-09-16T19:01:00.003-07:00

Bakit mahal kita?
hindi ko rin alam,
basta alam ko mahal kita,
tama ba ginagawa natin?
siguro, maari, ewan ko ,
para sa akin masaya ako kapag kasama kita.
mahal mo ba ako?
OO
alam ko
nararamdaman ko
mas mahal mo ako kesa sa kanya
pero bakit hindi mo siya maiwan?
sinabi mo na ang dahilan ........
dahil ayaw mo mag isa
paano ka mag iisa eh nandito naman ako!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hindi ba?
wala pa rin sayo
ang gulo mo kausap........
hindi mo alam kung sino sa aming dalawa
bakit ako ganito?
Kasi ganyan ka......
Ang labo mo kausap......